Change is inevitable. Until the day we die, we will be continuously changing. Whether that is our style, our personality, our beliefs, our hair, or just ourselves. Within the past three months, I have noticed change within myself. Change is not always a bad thing. In fact, often it can be a change that helps you find who you are, or who you want to be. I do not think it can ever be pinpointed to a specific moment, rather a continuous and gradual progression. Yesterday morning, however, there was a moment where I realized this.
Your typical morning: alarm didn't go off, bad hair day, unfinished homework, negative sleep, tired body, Keurig out of water-you get the picture. Running late to my 8 am class, I decided I still needed coffee to get through the day. It was really my only hope to prevent a mid-day mental breakdown. I ran out of time to add 1 tbsp of Hazelnut creamer. I have been an avid coffee drinker (at least one cup a day) for the past 3 or so years. I cannot recollect a moment where I ever drank my coffee without any additives. I am a sucker for flavored creamers and have most likely tried every flavor, even the special editions. However, this morning I found myself drinking black coffee, and liking it more than I ever thought I would. Now a poor college student, I became happy inside at the fact that I would now be saving money!! Oh how a few dollars changes once you are in college and literally broke. This change from creamer to no creamer doesn't sound like anything particularly special, but I saw a change within myself. How did I go so long without knowing this about myself? How did I go so long without ever trying my coffee black? What else do I not know about myself? If you never take the risk, as small as a change in your coffee, how will you ever be able to understand yourself? If you can't understand yourself, how are others supposed to? This had me pondering my life, and myself. The question of "Who am I?" crossed my mind a time or two. The short answer to the question: I don't know, and quite frankly I will never know. If change is continuous throughout my lifetime, I will never be able to understand or even know every part of myself. The only way I can try, is to live my life to the fullest and take advantage of every opportunity at hand. Get to know yourself. Take risks. Make mistakes. Try your coffee black. After all, change is inevitable.
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Theresa Lippert
11/16/2015 06:12:48 am
I love hearing about your life and how you are growing into being your best self.
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Josie Jones
11/16/2015 12:12:49 pm
Thanks you Theresa!!
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